So we start the walk.

This all started about 4 years ago.  We made a choice.  We thought it was the right one.  A good one.  The right one for our family.  However, if you notice it says WE made that choice.  That's right, WE.  You see it was a choice that we made outside the will of God.  Had we only been patient, to listen, to stop.  You see 4 years ago we prayed and seeked the Lord on Pat getting a vasectomy and although we NEVER heard anything from God, we still choose to move forward, and Pat went in for surgery.

So here we are 4 years later, can I tell you I have never in my life hurt so bad, for so long, after a decision.  You see, we never heard from God becuase that was a not a choice HE wanted for us.  To make a long story shorter, the need or want to have more children has never gone away.  I am from a large family, oldest of 9.  I have always known I want a big family I just didn't know what that would look like.  Even on the day of Pats surgery I KNEW our family wasn't complete, but I did not know how it would look like.

We had many talks, adoption, vasectomy reversal, fostering, and honestly, Pat was not having any of it.  It was a decision we made that he was sticking too.  So I just cried out to God, you know our hearts, you know my heart and YOU birthed this family in me and what its to be and we are not there yet.  Help me!  God help us.  I love that no cry, no tear, no prayer, goes unrecognized with our Father.  You see after Pats vasectomy we got pregnant.  I lost that baby.  Can I tell you there is nothing worse then to want something you realized you didn't want.  To have it and to loose it.  It was a very very hard year and each year that has gone by has been a bit easier, but to know how excited we were, to feel that and see that on Pat, and that once we lost that, well it was a very hard hard year.  However our GOD IS A REDEEMER!!!!

You see as I cried out to God and searched for answers He was already at work in Pat.  Stirring in him a need to expand our family.  God even speaking to him saying, I was not done with your blessings and YOU (I am sure this means Pat and I as we both made this decision) stopped my hand.  Last summer he came to me one night and said I have been researching reversals, the recovery time and the chances of it working and this is something I think we should do.  I am so excited.  Now we started to look into price.  The doctor who did his vasectomy would charge $5500, which is paid in full to the office at time of service.  No insurance on this, all of its out of pocket.


The beauty of walking in Gods will is when your there, he makes your path straight and brings affirmation.  He brought people into our lives who had walked this road already, that brought us wisdom, and even bringing us to a doctor who will do the surgery for $1700!!!!  I cannot tell you how excited we were about this.


We have been praying about this money because as much of a discount this is, its still a chunk not to mention airfare, food, hotel for him to go and stay a night or 2 for recovery.  We have very slowly putting a little away here and there. But now a good chunk of that money has been supplied.  However, it seems that as we make to 2 steps forward on this journey we take a few back as well.  The enemy is just after this.  So we are getting close to the goal of having everything we need.  We know that God will provide the rest, we don't know what it looks like or where it will come from, but we KNOW, HE HAS IT!

As we are learning with our life group study:  no man, no woman, no child, no devil can pull you out of the will of God.  We are now walking and reminding ourselves daily that He is faithful.  Pat is calling on Friday to set up the appointment for the surgery, laying down the $500 deposit to hold the surgery date.  So we are praying and asking that you pray with us, that the money that needs to be raised will be done by the day he needs board the plane to head out to Oklahoma to Dr. Wilson.  Till then, we are walking by faith, trusting that we are landing on solid ground, and knowing that He has it all taken care.